Haven't been able to sleep really when I tried to go to bed a couple hours ago, just can't since my mind just replays the events that lead to my discovery earlier today. I went to her house after buying two sushi trays at a local sushi place, only to find her on the couch of her living room doing oral sex with a blond haired female that I've never seen before. The look on her face when she heard me come in, was mixture of embarrassment and obvious pleasure in what she was doing. And the fact that she didn't go after me, when I ran out of her house is more clue to me that I was being used as either as an experiment or as a boy toy.
I should have realized that her offer was too good to be true when we started dating the month and half ago, I should have been more aware and I should have trusted my intuition that something was wrong instead of diving into this. I don't blame her really, I blame myself. Thus why the anger is still there, but I'm more overfilled with severe depression then anything else. We'll see what tomorrow brings...
Last edited by EchoEpsilon23; June 29 2012 at 06:46:43 AM.
Why would you blame yourself? You did nothing wrong, what you did is trust another human being which is in most cases the right thing. Just take it as a life experience and go on with your life.
Don't blame yourself, shewas the one acting like a whore.
Take the positive lessons out of this.you are not as aberrant as you seem to think and you have the potential to care about and be able to care about other people in a romantic/sexual sense.use this to grow.
Just to be clear - was your relationship with her expressly acknowledged as monogamous, or is that just your expectation?
You didnt have the most conventional of sexual relationships, I dont see why other conventions should automatically be assumed if they were never expressed.
Did she even call you her boyfriend?
I mean fuck, I break the law in some parts of my life, but that doesn't mean I also go around robbing banks for lols. Doing one thing different isn't a free reign to do whatever you like.
@Echo you're ace, she's a bitch. Move on and find someone equally as ace as you.
Dark Flare, how about you read up on Echo? His relationship was way beyond normal so normal rules and boundaries don't really apply
Hey, I just met you,
and this is crazy
but here's my number,
so call me, maybe?
May not apply.
Also just because you swing, for instance, doesnt mean its cool to go sleep with other people without the consent and awareness of your partner. Seems that's not the case here.
Hello? Oh, hello! I'm sorry it's a very bad line. No, no no... but that's not possible, she was sealed in to the Seventh Obelisk after the prayer meeting. Well, no, I get that it's important... an Egyptian Goddess loose on the Orient Express. In Space. Give us a mo....
... don't worry about a thing, your Majesty; we're on our way.
Maybe I'm just being a little slow here and 'don't get it'.. and I know Echo is a bit unusual in his relationship due to certain circumstances.. and maybe this is just me? But if I walked in on my girlfriend giving oral sex to another girl and she looked up at me with a pleasure filled gaze I'd pull up a chair and at least watch.. not turn and walk away..
But I'm rather an odd one, I guess?
Seriously though, if your girl wants to go down on another chick and your circumstances are what they are, I say don't throw the baby out with the bathwater.. I think you can make that work, Echo!
Echo had a odd relationship and i would have joined the 2 girls instead of walking away in horror.
In emo news im, still. really bumed out my psych is beeing laid off in september and i will have to start over with some other :lesad:
I dont really "get" why someone with almost no interest in sex sees sex as betrayal.