
Originally Posted by
EchoEpsilon23
Tomorrow is the big day for getting the prostate stimulation from the a friend from the fencing club, as I've talked about on IRC, very stressed out at the moment about it. I know, I know people have been saying it's going to be alright, but I just am so scared of the unknown, how I'll feel about it, whether I can take get an object up my anal cavity, whether I have to massage her, and do something back, what she'll say about my scars and all the little things that I know nothing about. I feel like I'm going to have stroke to be heard, not sleeping much, not eating much, just feel more retarded than late. And I know I would feel worse if I didn't go through with it, I'd feel like I wasn't man enough to at least try it.
It also probably my aversion to sexual actions that is really keeping me from being comfortable from this probably. I mean from the way you guys talk about sex, it's like some sort of heavenly pleasure when all I feel when I have an orgasm is piercing and burning pain coming from my lower abdomen, that makes me want to curl up to shut off the pain. And then I feel so ashamed, so dirty for doing such an action when it always turns out bad, that this all about up the ass is just a little too much. I don't know, I'll try it and be opened minded about it, but bloody sake I hate myself so much.
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