I hope you guys are doing ok. I kind of think this thread is a reflection of srs mental health in general... A lot of people struggling/trundling/excelling on. Not much to say, but they're getting there. People doing ok, but sometimes we need support. Big up my schizophrenic/ocd/depressive/bi-polar/aspie friends! I don't know your name, but I care about you in fierce srs places like these. Big up ma8tes.
Big up m8.Originally Posted by Buceph
I do feel the same way. I do pop in and read here from time to time, I might not have much to add but big up to everyone struggeling. I'm struggeling myself from time to time with some form of depression, mostly because I feel quite a bit lonly and missing to coming home to someone, been like this since my last breakup. Most of the days I don't think about it or feel anything other days I'm more of a wreck and just hate everything/everyone in my life. I think I still miss her, but having female attention coming my way feels really good, I just hope I wont scew up.
Anyway compare to what some of you guys are going trough and struggeling with, my issues or problems are nothing in compairision. Keep figthing and big ups to all the FHC brosefs here.
Watching you move while you sleep since 2005.
Fucking hell.
This thread alone keeps the flame alive that there are humans behind the keyboards rather than malevolent, gibbering, spiteful, internerds.
Big up.
(I do have my own crosses to bear but i'm ok so I won't share.)
No, please share. That's the purpose of this thread. You never know, your posts may resonate with someone and could lead to them getting better.
Never pass up an opportunity where you might help someone.
Does anyone else feel they suffer from seasonal depression? I swear I lose all desire for anything during the winter months. Maybe I'm just experiencing a burnout from constant classwork over the last year and independent study for the last three months.
At any rate, trying to stay motivated and on course is a bitch. At least for me. I hardly enjoy anything, going to bars, playing pool, cards etc. Video games, nothing.
Need more sunlight. There's supposedly lamps that emit a spectrum similar to the sun, but going for the walks during the day help me.
If lack of sunshine is part of the problem, many people find that full spectrum light bulbs can help. You can buy them almost anywhere that sells normal light bulbs. I use them throughout my house.Need more sunlight. There's supposedly lamps that emit a spectrum similar to the sun, but going for the walks during the day help me.
They are more expensive than standard light bulbs, but not by a huge margin. Besides - if it helps you feel better then who cares how much it costs?
I do have some tidbits to add to the thread at some point, but too tired tonight.
Seasonal Affective Disorder. Pretty well researched, understood enough to where it's very manageable.
Has a lot to do with light reception by the eye and hormone/NT production/transmission. Find yourself a natural light lamp.
I had a chat about this with my psychiatrist (the expert on the meds not the talk kind).
How she explained it to me is that escitalopram has a life cycle of 30 hours. When you drink hard liquor with escitalopram the escitalopram wont get absorbed as it should due to the liver being allready over active both by the meds and the liquor. What i experienced a few times is many of the withdrawl symptosm that you get when cold turky stopping the meds. It actually makes a lot of sense after she explained it. So on the one hand you have issues , well i, with hard liquor getting way more stupidly drunk due to the meds and the same with withdrawl symptoms the day after.
As i said my solution is a)drinking less and b) allmost none hard liqueor just beer and wine.
Small adjustment, just as happy.
bigup
As many have already pointed out, you are far from the only one. I know for a fact that Philips has a range of products marketed to people who suffer from this problem.
My husband uses their 'wake up light' alarm clock, which simulates the light you would experience from a rising sun (you can adjust the light level) during a period of about 30 mins. It helps with a more energetic start of the day if you are sensitive to the lack of light in winter. If you are seriously affected you should probably look into a natural light lamp, etc.
Happens to me also. Dunno if it's directly related to lack of sunlight (we receive plenty of sunlight here in winter all the same, from 7 AM to 6 PM), but personally I think it's more on the cold weather. Not really sure.
I get it in the summer, which is the opposite of normal. I deal very well with cold, not so well with heat. My eyes are quite sensitive to light, so sunny days tend to be painful without sunglasses. I tend to feel most alive at night when it's cool and dark.
Living in southern California = I feel consistently good maybe 2 weeks a year. Must. Get. Out.
I get it in the summer, which is the opposite of normal. I deal very well with cold, not so well with heat. My eyes are quite sensitive to light, so sunny days tend to be painful without sunglasses. I tend to feel most alive at night when it's cool and dark.
Living in southern California = I feel consistently good maybe 2 weeks a year. Must. Get. Out.
So I've spent my two days off work in bed, both times I just stayed in my bedroom until.. well now, approx 8-9pm each night, eating around 600 calories yesterday and again today. No motivation whatsoever to get out of bed at a normal time. I have wages I need to lodge, I will run out of money soon in my bank account but I dont really care. Wanted to go out with my camera into town and never bothered. It's my brother-in-laws birthday and I still have christmas presents for his kids that I haven't dropped over. Personal hygiene and any form of social behavior has gone out the window. welp welp
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Mask_of_Sanity
Also reading the above didnt help
Ppl suffering depression are often emotionless too vov That's often why they do stupid things just to feel anything.
Contract stuff to Seraphina Amaranth.
"You give me the awful impression - I hate to have to say - of someone who hasn't read any of the arguments against your position. Ever."
I have nothing useful to contribute in particular but my first reaction to reading this was "Cheer up and stop being so depressed". This is despite (in spite?) being in a similar situation and knowing that this reaction doesn't help.
Felt the same way today, I got over it but meh. 3AM and I feel meh still.
I've been in that general situation before, I found the biggest way to get back is not to focus on what you're doing/did in the last few days. Get out of your building, even if it's just to go sit on the stoop and listen to the city. Don't do it because it's some goal, just because it's something to do.
I tend to revert to that sort of behavior, what I call 'hermit mode' whenever my life's gone to hell, and I find it takes time to re-center things. Start easy, just getting out for a bit to change your scenery helps a lot. Find a library or a cafe where you can buy a cup of tea or borrow a book and sit a while.
There's a concept called Third Place, that we need some place that's not work and not home. I find that having some place like that can help a lot, doesn't matter if it's a park, a cafe, a library, or a bench on the pier.
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I thought what I'd do was, I'd pretend I was one of those Thukkers, that way I wouldn't have to have any goddamn stupid useless conversations with anybody.
I've been up all night, with my mind racing. This is all due to the fact that earlier today I said to someone, "Work is no longer fun." It's been a realisation that took a little time to sink in, but since I got back to work after Christmas the signs that I've been getting into bad habits and bad mental space have been there, and now that I think about it it's quite evident. I've been staying up later and later, despite getting more and more tired, just trying to put off the fall asleep/wake up and straight to work cycle. My concentration has gotten worse, when I started at the job I could spend a couple of hours on doing something well, now I have to struggle to stay involved with it. I'm still managing it but I'm becoming fearful of the work, I do the work but I don't engage with it to the best I know I can for fear of getting it wrong, failing or pissing off "the bosses", when deep down I know I should be arguing my corner and making the role my own, to the best I can. The lack of concentration has been ported over to other parts of my life, while during previous weekends I'd be out at night I'd still be getting up the next weekend morning and engaging with a game, a book, painting models, photography, going to the gym, etc., now I'm not really going out at night, sleeping until the late afternoon and then wandering the house not applying myself to anything. I've not been seeing my friends as often as I used, and not making the effort to see them either.
I don't know if it's the lack of urgency with the job at the moment. I don't know if it's my worries over the responsibility of getting up every day and having to do something properly. I don't know if it's even tedium in that there's no great challenge at the moment (and this ties into the lack of urgency.) It may even be that the previous week of busy-ness at work has tired me out. All in all, it's the exact same stuff that everyone else goes through every day of their life with a not-exhilarating job, and the pressures of real life on them. So I just need to tough it out. But when I start to spend the entire night awake, looking for anything to get me out of this situation, nerves and panic setting in, and worse of all my mind racing in a really agitated fashion, I need to sort myself out in some way, part of which is writing this out, in an effort to clear my head and hopefully by tonight or tomorrow morning I'll be feeling better. I just really fucking hate when I get like this, because this can be the start of a downward negative spiral.
Edit:
Fuck, maybe it's even the opposite of this. Maybe I had my hopes set on the idea that this job would allow me to utilise what I know. To bring X years of education to bear on something in the real world, and now I'm realising that that's not the case. And I need to accept the fact that my education didn't prepare me for a working position at all: either it set me up with false confidence that what I learned is actually applicable to correct business practice, or that what I learned is correct business practice but simply not applicable to the realities of business. Maybe I'm having problems that really my responsibilities aren't to what I know or believe is best, but to something that although I believe them to be incorrect is none-the-less required by my position and is actually something that is more correct than what I previously believed. That basically I just need to shut the fuck up and do what I'm told, and not get invested in what I'm doing, because maybe what I'm already invested in is actually incorrect. That I need to learn the proper ways of doing things, and this is a slow learning process I'm simply not set up for. And maybe this is a bit of cognitive dissonance as the first step of unlearning/realising the truth of what really is needed in a real world situation.
Bah, fucking hell. I need to stop this introspective crap and get on with things. fuckshitbollox, aaargh.
Last edited by Mrenda; February 6 2012 at 07:03:49 AM.
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