Emo Thread Mk.VIII - It always rains. In my soul.

[Helen]

Jimmies rustled up in here =)

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Rustle my jimmies!

Anyone?

[cullnean]

Jimmies rustled up in here =)

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Rustle my jimmies!

Anyone?

I'll rustle your jimmies sweetpea

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[Cosmin]

I'm not sure if it's luck or just the way I am, it seems I'm attracting only dysfunctional people lately (last few years). Discussed with therapist - you need to go out more. But that's how I met those people. Catch 22 much?

[Duckslayer]

I'm not sure if it's luck or just the way I am, it seems I'm attracting only dysfunctional people lately (last few years). Discussed with therapist - you need to go out more. But that's how I met those people. Catch 22 much?

Show me a person who isnt dysfunctional to some degree and ill show you a lying cunt. On the other hand, you need to stop going to mental hospitals in your scrubs to pick up ladies

[Dorvil Barranis]

Daddy issues = best issues

[Cosmin]

I'm not sure if it's luck or just the way I am, it seems I'm attracting only dysfunctional people lately (last few years). Discussed with therapist - you need to go out more. But that's how I met those people. Catch 22 much?

Show me a person who isnt dysfunctional to some degree and ill show you a lying cunt. On the other hand, you need to stop going to mental hospitals in your scrubs to pick up ladies

Made me chuckle there. I am aware we're all dysfunctional to some degree, however after trying to make stuff work vs BPD then recently I think a mix of BPD and other stuff I'm quite keen to just be alone. For a long while whilst I quietly contemplate what the hell is wrong with people in general (most personality disorders are a result of terrible stuff being inflicted by humans onto humans unlike the stuff I deal with daily that involves mostly microscopic pissed off chaps which can be managed by outright deleting them instead of trying to talk it through, could you imagine doing CBT with E Coli?).

I'd like to think I've discovered some wisdom in all these experiences though, but the end result is that I'm just a lot more bitter and sad and therapy isn't helping anymore (got told I'm ok and to kindly fk off cuz there's lotsa sick people in line basically).

Cat is helping, tinkering with stuff is helping and a walk through the rain is helping (ty, UK) but I can see why Vader went the way he did


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[Dorvil Barranis]

At least you have a cat for company. Best wishes.

[Isyel]

I'm not sure if it's luck or just the way I am, it seems I'm attracting only dysfunctional people lately (last few years). Discussed with therapist - you need to go out more. But that's how I met those people. Catch 22 much?

Show me a person who isnt dysfunctional to some degree and ill show you a lying cunt. On the other hand, you need to stop going to mental hospitals in your scrubs to pick up ladies

Made me chuckle there. I am aware we're all dysfunctional to some degree, however after trying to make stuff work vs BPD then recently I think a mix of BPD and other stuff I'm quite keen to just be alone. For a long while whilst I quietly contemplate what the hell is wrong with people in general (most personality disorders are a result of terrible stuff being inflicted by humans onto humans unlike the stuff I deal with daily that involves mostly microscopic pissed off chaps which can be managed by outright deleting them instead of trying to talk it through, could you imagine doing CBT with E Coli?).

I'd like to think I've discovered some wisdom in all these experiences though, but the end result is that I'm just a lot more bitter and sad and therapy isn't helping anymore (got told I'm ok and to kindly fk off cuz there's lotsa sick people in line basically).

Cat is helping, tinkering with stuff is helping and a walk through the rain is helping (ty, UK) but I can see why Vader went the way he did


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If as you claim everyone is fucked up and horrible most likely the issue lies in the one thing connecting them, and that is you. This is not shitting on you to make it clear, I'm saying odds are its how you currently perceive things. Try to improve that in whatever way feels right and things should improve, hopefully.

Best of luck.

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[Keckers]

If you smell shit in every room you enter it is probably on your shoe.

[Lallante]

A lot of people who end up in relationships with BPD people have fucked up conceptions of what passion, love and validation is supposed to feel like (i.e. wrongly subs consciously perceive "drama" and fighting and emotional rollercoasters as inherent in caring for or loving someone). When they meet someone who doesn't treat them in the way a BPD person does (absolute adolation followed by absolute hell-fury and repeat ad infinitum) they wrongly assume "there is no spark" because they don't feel that constant ecstasy-anxiety-agony cycle that characterises a BPD relationship at least in the early stages. In a way this leaves them codependent to a degree.


Lots more on this here: outofthefog.net

[Cosmin]

Thanks guys. It's mostly what Lall said is wrong about my situation at least (discussed at length with therapist), however it wasn't that that threw me over the hedge, it's just putting an outrageous amount of effort in time trying to help the first one to end up booted to shit and her turning back to the same people who've hurt her made me nope the fuck out of the next one and made me analyse again myself.

And the wisdom comes, slowly but surely. I feel I made really good progress and it's okish now.

But the drain. Fml, the drain is real. I'm beginning to catch up, but I've been exhausted for the past months.


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[NoirAvlaa]

Just about to meet girl for date.

E: first girl since my ex... I take a while to move on :/

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[Keckers]

Just about to meet girl for date.

E: first girl since my ex... I take a while to move on :/

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Good luck, it's your year la!

[NoirAvlaa]

Just about to meet girl for date.

E: first girl since my ex... I take a while to move on :/

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Good luck, it's your year la!

Thanks la! How long until I ask her if she knows how to warp to 0 and show her my entire FHC history? I was thinking mid way through the main course...

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[Spaztick]

Just about to meet girl for date.

E: first girl since my ex... I take a while to move on :/

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Good luck, it's your year la!

Thanks la! How long until I ask her if she knows how to warp to 0 and show her my entire FHC history? I was thinking mid way through the main course...

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Eww don't do a dinner ate. Bring your laptop (or desktop) to a coffee shop and have it open on your screen.

[NoirAvlaa]

Just about to meet girl for date.

E: first girl since my ex... I take a while to move on :/

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Good luck, it's your year la!

Thanks la! How long until I ask her if she knows how to warp to 0 and show her my entire FHC history? I was thinking mid way through the main course...

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Eww don't do a dinner ate. Bring your laptop (or desktop) to a coffee shop and have it open on your screen.

Yeah the main course is a Starbucks tuna melt m8

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[Duckslayer]

Thanks guys. It's mostly what Lall said is wrong about my situation at least (discussed at length with therapist), however it wasn't that that threw me over the hedge, it's just putting an outrageous amount of effort in time trying to help the first one to end up booted to shit and her turning back to the same people who've hurt her made me nope the fuck out of the next one and made me analyse again myself.

And the wisdom comes, slowly but surely. I feel I made really good progress and it's okish now.

But the drain. Fml, the drain is real. I'm beginning to catch up, but I've been exhausted for the past months.


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I get the impression you are pressuring yourself at every step to be on some unending upward spiral of success and self improvement. Apologies if im way off btw. It is a noble goal but perhaps be a bit more kind to yourself when you fail. You are permanently exhausted in a career where that is very much an occupational hazard but also something to be very careful of. You need a weekend break away to a warm beach, lying around half cut for a few days in the sun imo. Something to add a deep breath to your mental sprint race.

[Dorvil Barranis]

Just about to meet girl for date.

E: first girl since my ex... I take a while to move on :/

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Good luck, it's your year la!

Thanks la! How long until I ask her if she knows how to warp to 0 and show her my entire FHC history? I was thinking mid way through the main course...

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After/during the anal sex

[Helen]

Just about to meet girl for date.

E: first girl since my ex... I take a while to move on :/

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Good luck, it's your year la!

Thanks la! How long until I ask her if she knows how to warp to 0 and show her my entire FHC history? I was thinking mid way through the main course...

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After/during the anal sex

This guy fucks!

[Nordstern]

Thanks la! How long until I ask her if she knows how to warp to 0 and show her my entire FHC history? I was thinking mid way through the main course...

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